Just finished my exam yesterday,feel a lil bit relieved now.. no matter what the result would be,i just leave out all the rest and what i know is that i did try my best. a moments ago,i was in call with my mum.. damn i miss her so much,daddy and other as well. maybe it is true that no matter how far the distance that separate us from our loves one, the instinct is just to strong to be denied. i have experienced it so many times, as just now i planned to call home, but running out of credit, few minutes after that..
mummy call me, i'm so happy coz i have not hearing her voice for about 2 weeks time? i know she miss me as i did, she tell me story that make me so exited and extremely wanna be home... i'm so paid ToT, mummy said even my maid keep on asking her, when I'll be back. coz earlier as i plan to go home by this 17th soon after i finished my exam. but things doesn't seems to be right.. silly me that i have not been checking my passport and visa, and it's nearly expired. i have to renew it by this few days,i hate myself for being so careless!!! it's definitely gonna be another lesson to be learn!
missing them that much, i try to find some pictures on my notebook to cure a lil bit of my homesickness.
this is mummy/ i used to call her "ii" and daddy "papa" ^o^
no doubt, both of them is the bigger motivator in my life ever since i born up to this second. i'm so proud to call 'em my parent... the most precious and the only one. they teach me how to appreciate life when things are getting taught, how to be strong and respect others no matter what people has done to us.
let me share a lil bit about my love one.. i consider myself as a "enough" family,and i thanks god for it ^o^... i not risen up from a "golden spoon" family. when mum look at me, she used to tell me how lucky as I'm with what i have today, i got phone,nice clothes,eat well,entertainment, go to university, etc. she said back in her time, even to buy i new shirt for new year, her parent (ma grand ma/pa)can't effort. that is why she couldn't continue her school, mum is a illiterate. need to work hard since she were 10 years old, morning till late at night. help her parent to made, fried, and sells prawn crackers and other snacks + doing other house work... that is how she dealt with the tougher life that make her stronger.
same goes to daddy, he lose both of his parent (ma grand ma/pa) since he was young. he been through the same situation like my mummy does, he stayed with his auntie and need to work for them. the only different is just that daddy got a chance to study up to high school. both of them starting life from "Nothing" to be "Something"..
sometimes, there is a moment where i feel that i have disappoint them a lots, seems like i couldn't appreciate what i have with me now.. the clearest example that i could take would be my school performance, i got the chance to go for university.. but i didn't make it well. ever since she(mum) told me until now, still bear in ma mine, she said "i just want to see all my sons and daughters success.. have academic degree, not like me. all the goodness is for you all, to me, i got nothing other that seeing you all passes your day happily"
well, i just want them to know... that i love them so much,even some people might think that it's so silly to write on a blog, where they will never know unless i tell the to the face... but i believe, they do & can feel it.. not to promise, but i'll keep trying to be a better one. at last,i'm so proud of them... THIS IS MY PARENT
*after writing this blog i feel a lil bit better ^o^
mummy call me, i'm so happy coz i have not hearing her voice for about 2 weeks time? i know she miss me as i did, she tell me story that make me so exited and extremely wanna be home... i'm so paid ToT, mummy said even my maid keep on asking her, when I'll be back. coz earlier as i plan to go home by this 17th soon after i finished my exam. but things doesn't seems to be right.. silly me that i have not been checking my passport and visa, and it's nearly expired. i have to renew it by this few days,i hate myself for being so careless!!! it's definitely gonna be another lesson to be learn!
missing them that much, i try to find some pictures on my notebook to cure a lil bit of my homesickness.
this is mummy/ i used to call her "ii" and daddy "papa" ^o^
no doubt, both of them is the bigger motivator in my life ever since i born up to this second. i'm so proud to call 'em my parent... the most precious and the only one. they teach me how to appreciate life when things are getting taught, how to be strong and respect others no matter what people has done to us.
let me share a lil bit about my love one.. i consider myself as a "enough" family,and i thanks god for it ^o^... i not risen up from a "golden spoon" family. when mum look at me, she used to tell me how lucky as I'm with what i have today, i got phone,nice clothes,eat well,entertainment, go to university, etc. she said back in her time, even to buy i new shirt for new year, her parent (ma grand ma/pa)can't effort. that is why she couldn't continue her school, mum is a illiterate. need to work hard since she were 10 years old, morning till late at night. help her parent to made, fried, and sells prawn crackers and other snacks + doing other house work... that is how she dealt with the tougher life that make her stronger.
same goes to daddy, he lose both of his parent (ma grand ma/pa) since he was young. he been through the same situation like my mummy does, he stayed with his auntie and need to work for them. the only different is just that daddy got a chance to study up to high school. both of them starting life from "Nothing" to be "Something"..
sometimes, there is a moment where i feel that i have disappoint them a lots, seems like i couldn't appreciate what i have with me now.. the clearest example that i could take would be my school performance, i got the chance to go for university.. but i didn't make it well. ever since she(mum) told me until now, still bear in ma mine, she said "i just want to see all my sons and daughters success.. have academic degree, not like me. all the goodness is for you all, to me, i got nothing other that seeing you all passes your day happily"
well, i just want them to know... that i love them so much,even some people might think that it's so silly to write on a blog, where they will never know unless i tell the to the face... but i believe, they do & can feel it.. not to promise, but i'll keep trying to be a better one. at last,i'm so proud of them... THIS IS MY PARENT
*after writing this blog i feel a lil bit better ^o^
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i'll never stop tryin' babez... you know me huh,when i said something,i mean it >.< *cak iyo2 nian,hahahha
i know u've tried your best babe, i was with u in few sems ago, so i know every struggle that you've taken (lbh ck iyo2 nian, padahal blajar bentar, cape, pigi supper deh) hahahha..... miss those days!!!
Of course babe ;)
That why I'm fall in love with blog!
I miss your mom lerh ;)
If she call you again,send my regards to her ;)
Take care,
ana : absolutely,that's why i'm so mad when my blog error,coz it's like losing a friend where i can talk to,i will tell her for sure ^o^